Okay, so… I’m planning on going to the cinema to watch Oppenheimer today, and so, have done everything I’d usually leave until before bed, so that I don’t end up doing it at 1, 2 or 3 in the morning, like I usually do.
I’ve also decided to write this post now, rather than then, although I might end up rushing it? I don’t know. Whatever.
If you were to ask me what I’m passionate about, I’d probably list video games as one, if not the only, example. Even though I don’t really play them that often. Well, I kind of do. But only the same one/s? I’ve amassed dozens of games that I’d like to play at some point over the years, but haven’t really played too many of them.
It’s kinda like waiting until marriage? But not at all? I’m stopping myself from playing them because I want to keep my honest, initial reaction for my YouTube channel, which I still haven’t really started. And by that I mean, I haven’t yet uploaded any videos.
Interesting thing is, I have already watched full playthroughs of a few of the games I have, but still won’t touch them. Maybe it’s to do with the fact that once I’ve played the game, I won’t want to replay it? But… more games will come out… more games keep getting released…
This post is clearly going to just be about me critiquing myself. Judging myself? One of those (or both?).
It might have something to do with me being afraid that I have nothing to say. Or that it won’t be funny. Or entertaining. Or maybe I do have something to say, but am too afraid to speak up.
Either way, there’s always the possibility that something will happen. Maybe the world will come to an end. Or maybe I will come to an end. And I’ll never get to have enjoyed those games. Or books. Or films. Or songs.
I mean, if I only had a year left, then would I still hesitate?
I don’t think so. At least I hope I wouldn’t.
I could just record myself playing, with the intention of never showing the footage to anybody. Then, over time, I’d gain the confidence to record for an audience. Or maybe I’d upload the videos if I found good enough moments. Such as a compilation.
Wasn’t Markiplier’s first video a compilation of moments from Amnesia: The Dark Descent? I’m pretty sure it was.
Anyways, I want to go for a walk. And don’t have much time left before I need to leave for the cinema.
I can play games, without recording anything, but still mention my experiences here, on my blog. Right? Yeah, of course I can.
So, thank you for reading. And have a nice day.
– Abby
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