It’s an amazing film. I’m not really sure what to say, other than it was worth experiencing.
Beautiful.
Anyways, I couldn’t help but get reminded of Lexie, and I realized that I hadn’t said that much about what I had appreciated about her.
I didn’t finish saying my goodbyes, really.
Lexie, was a lovely dog. No amount of words could describe how special she was, so I won’t bother trying.
She was a better dog than I could have ever asked for. The best dog.
I just… she joined our family over 10 years ago, back in 2014.
She’s been with us for nearly half of my life, and I just can’t believe she’s gone.
I hate death. I hate how everything must come to an end.
I wish I had spent more time with her. I really do. God, do I regret not spending more time with her.
She didn’t want to be alone. She’d follow us most of the time, wanting to be close to someone.
And when we’d have to leave her alone at home, she’d start barking… did we have to leave her alone?
It’s just… oh my… I wish I was there.
I didn’t know!
I just… keep seeing her there. With me.
And I want to believe that that’s her. That it counts. That she’s really here.
And that I can make up for the lost time.
But a part of me just knows that I can’t… and I hate that part of myself.
I wish that I could tell it it’s wrong. I wish I could find a way to convince myself that she’s here.
That she’s okay.
That it’s all okay.
But all I’m left with are memories.
There are so many things she’d do that… were so… heart-warming…
She’d just look at you, start wagging her tail, and start making her way towards you…
…she’d try jumping up onto the sofa, but fail… try again, but fail… and then she’d manage to do it…
…and she’d just sit there with you.
She wanted nothing else… besides food, water, sleep and walks, of course.
But she was perfect. Say what you will about perfection, but Lexie was perfect in her own way.
And if she couldn’t jump onto the sofa, then she’d jump up onto your legs… she’d hold herself upright with her front paws on your lap, and her back paws on the floor, while wagging her tail…
She seemed to love everybody. For all I know, she did love everybody.
I remember going on walks with her… she’d keep stopping, to smell the flowers… or bins… mainly the bins. I’m pretty sure there were no flowers.
But at least she knew how to slow down and just appreciate the moment. I wish I had done more of that.
There’s so much I could have learned from her.
She deserved the best… and I’m glad that we got to call her a member of our family.
Rest in peace.
– Abby